1. |
Longing
01:33
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i wish i felt
full of life
and wonder
at every breath
i wish i felt
like i deserved
to feel some love
for myself
i wish i held
my head up high
to the sky
to the sky
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2. |
Forbidden Book
02:34
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you love your whiteness
more than you love her
30 years
is not enough
to change
your violent embrace
of a joyless
fucked up world
do you remember
how you taught us
to run and hide
from all conflict
we've learned to reject
our inner instincts
for the sake of
pleasing others
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3. |
Rose Funeral
02:21
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i run your lipstick
all over my mouth
i rub my face all
over your mirror
as you watch me
you beat me half to death
so here's a lesson
you'll never forget
so here's a lesson
you'll never forget
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4. |
Strange Blue
04:41
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all alone
on a bleacher
you watch the sun set
on an empty field
and the courts below
you think to yourself
before this world dies
i hope that i
find someone
find someone who loves me
you never thought
you'd still be alive
today
you never thought
it would matter
even if you did
all of this
will be extinct soon
so tell me
what's the point in healing
when the end will tear
us all
away
hard to live in the moment
when you see the nightmare
coming closer now
with no escape
in sight
still you imagine
a world of pure consent
and you refuse
to kill this dream
and surrender to the silence
you never thought
you'd still be alive
today
you never thought
it would matter
even if you did
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5. |
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i don't want to think
that's there nothing without you
i want to believe
that i still have life in me
but i don't want to be the only one
the only one
who feels this way
or is it because
of who i am?
or something worse
that *i don't know what i said here lol*
i don't want to be the only one who
feels so much pain
and i'm not encouraging
anyone to be alone
or anybody else
to feel this way
or is this all
that i can find
is there nothing else for me?
i guess so
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6. |
Ritual
05:04
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he told me
i'm useless
she said i
make her sad
i am here
doing nothing
and i feel
empty
i am waiting
for someone
to hold me
but no one comes
he told me
i should die
she told me
to see nothing
all the merry people
in the world
walk and weep
all their eyes
are downcast
no one knows
how to be
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7. |
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i can't reason away
the quiet despair
i can't explain away
these anxious cries
inside my head
I don't deserve deserve
to feel good alone
i don't have the right
to trust myself
and i'm always scared
that i don't
feel a thing
i'm just floating through this life
and i barely exist
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8. |
No Paradise
04:58
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there's no paradise
for you
to escape to
when you see your God
tell Him
to leave me alone
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9. |
Azure Paler Than the Sky
05:42
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am I responsible
for everything they feel?
you don’t need to live alone
end your life by returning home
if they die you’ll be to blame
if they die you’re the one to blame
do i deserve to die
if I don’t submit
to the ones I love?
is it right to love myself
or is my worth determined by
approval from another’s words
can you live with just your own?
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10. |
Corridor of Dreams
04:14
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my days consist of
a fatigue that never ends
a thousand sunken heads
weigh down my every step
i find happiness
in unconsciousness each night
is that the only reason
i stay alive?
let me fall into my bed of dreams
where i am no one
where i can be nothing at all
i'm more myself
in this formless void
there's so much peace
in this emptiness
there's so much joy
here
in waking life
i float outside myself
like some indifferent ghost
i watch this body
i watch this body
walk and work and
Walk and work
and cry
again and again and again
I need time
and i need space
to sort it all out
to try and understand
why everything
feels so unreal
why does everything
seem so unreal
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